Shy's 1st Birthday

Last June 18, 2011 it was my Little Princess' 1st Birthday. I and my husband was very busy preparing a little party for our baby. We always keep in mind that birthdays need not be expensive and what matters is she will be happy on this day. We did everything, as in everything.

FOR THE FIRST TIME

For the first time in our married life, we felt so happily proud of ourselves that we didn't partly rely on other people to make the birthday celebration successful. We didn't ask any friends' help for the preparation. We didn't expects donations or shares from family but we are still thankful that my husband's brother and his wife gave a little gift in a form of cash. Thank you, somehow it helped a lot. My sister had sent a gift package for Shy too thru courier. Thank you Ate.I would also like to thank my boss for he had added a little amount to my salary for Shy's birthday.

My husband was in charged of the kitchen and I was in charged of the decorations. I had managed to decorate the house without spending a hundred! Quite unbelievable right? Yes I did. Decorations are expensive but ideas are free. I took out some colored papers from my son's bag and traced it to different sizes of number 1 and glued them all to the walls.

It was a beautiful night. Lots of colleagues and friends went over. My husband's colleagues came with their family - wife and kids. They all managed to enjoy the night by eating, drinking, and talking about different things and funny jokes. One of his colleagues brought a girlfriend and they were oh so sweet! Another guy came with his beloved wife and kid. His wife is friendly and looked so young. I wonder how old she is. The kid was so cute. He never wanted to be apart from his mom. They grouped together and had a nice conversation.

They talked bout their jobs, families, computers, work experiences and many different things about life. I also had a friend who went over the party, a friend I met just once and we met again for the second time. That's one real friendship. Some of the visitors managed to visit Facebook and played Plants vs. Zombies. Some just enjoyed chatting and chatting.

Ate Sharon, my bestfriend's sister was there too with Mama and her Kobe. I was so happy because for a very long time, we met again thru my child's birthday. Thank you very much Ma for coming. I remembered my college days. Ice, I wish you were here. Kobe and Nashville were very good friends. They played toy cars and chased each other while others are busy eating. :)

Here's the part which I liked the most... It was when Jake and Kathy arrived with the kids, nannies, and their mom. Seeing them was like fulfilling the celebration. Kids were all around playing balloons. I could see happiness in Shy's eyes.

Nashville was very busy playing and entertaining his visitors. He felt that it was his party too. I'm glad he was able to overcome his problem against socialization. He has conquered his shyness totally. Before, he never plays with other kids. He gets angry when somebody he doesn't know, touches him or talks to him. It was kinda weird but it was a struggling stage for him. He grew up with a mother who has been always busy at work. But it's not too late. His mother sacrificed everything for the kids, so she can watch over her kids - so I can watch over my kids. Whew... enough, enough, enough! This was really a happy moment.

CAPTURED STRIKE-A-POSE and CANDID MOMENTS

...a colorful night with colorful balloons and kids everywhere...

...with arnel's wife and kid, lanie and kid, nash and kobe...

...rengie on the go...

...tita, thanks for the cake, balloons, and your friends!...

...people from iloilo, thanks...

bestfriend's mom from polomolok, south cotabato...

...papa's friends and colleagues...

...how cute is the balloon...

...papa, thanks for the delicious dishes...

...behind the scenes with gang-gang...

...after the party with tita lottie...

...it was simple yet the best party ever...

...oh, before i forget, the gifts are wonderful...

Thank you very much everyone!

.. just isn't enough

i was so serious, so straight
from home to work i go
thinking of the things to do
hastened, so as not to be late

every task i did well
every instruction i followed
i've given everything
all my time and knowledge

but what has happened now
now that everything is known
now that somebody is taught
i've been slapped like a minnow

do you know what you have done?
do you remember when everything was fine?
for you its just like a normal day
any acknowledgment i receive none

worse when you're so called friends
who'll be with you though thick and thin
beware it's not really true at all
where are they now and their words?

just when you thought everything was smooth
just when you trusted your close pals that much
both have just used you and squeezed you
it's a fake friendship,
and everything just isn't enough

Shy's Butterfly

It was on Sept. 5, 2010 Sunday afternoon when I saw this butterfly. It was flying in our cute living room while we were doing the general cleaning. I was carrying my little daughter and it seemed that this creature is following her. I really never paid attention for I thought that it would just pass by. We continued doing the usual chores.

On the next morning, I saw the butterfly on the ceiling. It was still in our house! At first, we were happy to have thought this butterfly would bring us luck for its color is brown. And as the old belief goes, brown butterflies signify wealth. What a good life it would have been, if the old belief has come true. However, we just enjoyed seeing the creature flying to and fro our house.

"Butterfly.. butterfly!" as my older son kept on shouting. He was so amazed with it. I could see the happiness in his eyes. While my little daughter was very innocent about it. She would just smile, sigh, and utter a little laughter.
On the same night, the butterfly wasn't there anymore. I was just shocked knowing that it was on my back. My sister-in-law and my husband was surprised. They wondered why it kept on following me. By that time, I was carrying my little daughter again.

There was this little anxiety in me about this butterfly. It was days already with its presence. Whenever we will go to our bedroom, it goes there too. I felt that there's something with this butterfly.

Then I came to realize that sometimes, souls of the persons whom you love will reincarnate into another form of creature. It could be my tatay, my biological father, or my mama, my aunt who somehow became my mother. Maybe they just wanted to be with me or with my family. Much more than that, maybe they wanted to cuddle Baby Shy. For they didn't see her. They haven't felt what it is like to have a grandaughter like Shy.

Now, its Sept. 9, 2010 and believe it or not, the butterfly is still there. Everytime Baby Shy would cry, it would fly nearer to her. I really don't know what to conclude about this situation. But whatever it is, I just want to thank Tatay and Mama for watching over me, over us, and most of all watching Baby Shy.

From now on, I will name it as Shy's Butterfly.

May tatay and mama finds consolation in God's peace.

THANK YOU MAMA

Thank you Mama
For the beautiful dresses and clothes I get
You sewed them with your own hands
I’m wearing them as if my Sunday’s best

Thank you Mama
For helping me make my homework
Especially summaries of long stories
You made me study rather than lurk

Thank you Mama
For believing that I am intelligent and witty
You won’t allow the grade of seventy-nine
You made it changed to eighty-five instantly

Thank you Mama
For letting me join in role playing
As early as 1st grade as I can recall
I played doctor with a patient dying

Thank you Mama
For teaching me how to dance
Because of you I felt so beautiful
With the costumes and stance

Thank you Mama
For teaching me how to speak freely
Declamations, orations, poems, etc..
I could utter all the words heartily

Thank you Mama
For scolding one my 4th grade classmates
He throwed a stone on me while playing
Leaving my face and right eye in disgrace

Thank you Mama
For letting me manually scrub the floor
You told me it could make my legs strong
Scrubbing from the living room to the door

Thank you Mama
For letting me run errands
It made me very responsible
Industrious and never ignorant

Thank you Mama
For watching over me when I had measles
My fever is high and my body is trembling
You’re there until the sun’s shine ceases

Thank you Mama
For welcoming me in your humble abode
For treating me as one of your daughters
I will always love you until I grow old

The Little Princess

I am her little princess
For I am smart and pretty
As early as three days old
I'm already smiling, so witty

She took a thousand pictures of me
From the second I first cried
From the second I opened my eyes
"She is so beautiful!", Mama sighed


I am her little princess
For I am very strong
When I was inside her womb
I did struggled for so long

She worked all day and night
Even I'm still within her
So I made a very strong grip
With the pains she had to bear

I am her little princess
She had this deep love for me
She said that I am her life
Always have been and always will be

I am Mama's little princess
How did I really know?
You might be wondering all along
It's because my Mama said so..

Wrestlemania 25: Hail THE UNDERTAKER !

"My life is eternal.."

With confidence, Shawn Michaels uttered these words to The Undertaker days before Wrestlemania. He challenged The Undertaker desperately that prepared a grave to bury him. It was so disgusting for he made fun of it. Shawn Michaels was a typical blasphemy. He's portraying "Jesus" having eternal life and that he can defeat The Undertaker which he called "Evil" or the Prince of Darkness.

Then the battle came to reality. Shawn Michaels was introduced first. He mimicked The Undertaker's creepy introduction and attire. The only difference is that he's wearing white and he descended from up above. While The Undertaker ascended from below and just like the old days, still it was the best introduction ever.

Going 16-0 at this event, The Undertaker had a hard time battling with Shawn Michaels. It lasted for more than an hour, I think. Shawn Michaels fought so hard with the aim of defeating The Undertaker, thus making a history in Wrestlemania. He wanted to be remembered forever by the people and that is through The Undertaker's loss, 16-1 so he spoke.

Though The Undertaker did not finish the game in lesser time, yet he never forgot his ultimate goal - to keep his record "The Streak" clean. He may never knocked out Shawn Michaels at earlier time just like what he did to his previous opponent, yet He still did it. He proved to more than 72,000 people at Houston, Texas that he's still the The Undertaker and nobody could ever ever take his place.

Well, I guess Shawn Michael's life isn't really as eternal as The Undertaker's.

Hail The Undertaker ! ! !

JUST THIS MORNING..

"Sometimes, recalling the hurtful memories of the past makes me laugh and wonder why I cried. However, it makes me realize that I really had loved. Though not with the perfect person and not at the perfect time, yet I had loved perfectly.."

I wake up late this morning unaware that I haven’t changed my yesterday’s clothes. I’m wondering why. Then I came to realize that we hopped to a bar last night, had a little drink and went home past midnight.

I’m afraid because I know my mother would reprimand me for many reasons. First, I didn’t ask her permission to go to the bar. Second, I drank beer – that’s prohibited! Third, I went home late, not to mention – the dawn is breaking already.

I slowly went out of my room and my mother interrogated me… Blah…blah…blah… she goes. Usually, when she’s doing that stuff, I would go back to my room and cry all day. But just this morning is different, I just answered her truthfully, told her everything. Maybe because she was shocked by my reactions, she uttered a high-pitched voice saying “ I'm gonna send you the Home of Streetchildren!”. To whom is she talking to? To a 10-year old girl? I just laughed at her. Then, my dad and my sister laughed too. My mom couldn't help but laughed too. We're all laughing just this morning.

Then I received text messages from my him, my boyfriend. I was so glad that I’m so excited to take a bath – refresh myself, eat breakfast which i don’t usually do, and go to my hide-out, to the internet café. I was overwhelmed with happiness.

Suddenly, he told me that he’s leaving.
I didn’t know what to do.
I felt as if I was physically and mentally blocked.
It seemed I died during that moment.
I burst into tears.

I went back to my bed. I left my food on the table. I didn't want to take a bath anymore. I didn't want to get up. I just wanted to cry the whole day.

Supposedly, I was to cry for my mother's reproof – but I laughed.
Supposedly, I was to smile for his text messages – but I wept.

Just this morning, a lot of things happened.
Just this morning, there was a sudden twist of my emotions.

I just wish I never had this morning at all.